我就是我

我就是我，在我心里，其实有一道门紧紧地封锁着，任何人都不能踏入进去。其实有些时候，我懂我把自己锁得太紧，我自己也搞不清楚为何会这样。所以说，在这个世界里，没有人能够真正能够明白我，就因为我不容许任何人踏入这道门，我不希望别人能看透我在想什么，就连我最亲的家人和Hubby，我可以说，他们永远是没办法理解我。没有人可以企图要那把钥匙把那道门打开就因为锁得很紧，你越想理解我，我就会越离你越远。曾经有告诉朋友这一件事，她说，每一个人都有自己的故事是不想让任何人懂的。你同意吗？

20/4/12 Visited fourth Dermatologist ( Dr. Foong)

A sudden decision to visit famous Dr. Foong today. And the fees charged is surprisingly expensive and it's over my estimated budget. I do hope this is the last dermatologist i visit. Having a skin problem is not easy to cure, when you yourself have experienced the problem, you would understand how suffer it is and yet the problems follow you for such a long period.

First Time

17/4/12 The very first time I joined paintball game with them. Who are them? They are my closed friends in my university life.

18/4/12 The very first time i had steambot with them.

Suppose to say, I do really feel glad to have them with me all the time. We have fun always, we have discussion for mid term and final exam, we go for dinner and lunch almost everyday. And I know, our university's life is ended so soon, and we might have less chances to meet in future, so I do appreciate each moment we're togeta. We chat, we laugh, we share, we tease each others and still, there's no gap in between of us. All these good memories will remain silently in my heart and i woudn't forget everyone of u after we have graduated. All the best to u guys and jia you for our finals.

伤心

为何我的脸总是不能好起来？痘痘一直没有停止过出现，让我不懂要怎样做才能快快好起来？我试过很多方式来医治，但都没见的有好过。看了三次医生，用了半年的时间都不能医好。是我的身体有问题吗？为什么连医生都不能把我的脸给医好？还是我真的要改变我的生活方式了？没有熬夜，没有煎炸食物，没有咖啡，没有 Laksa & Tom Yam, 要保持早睡早起，喝足够的水。。：（

Finals 快到了

Finals 要到咯。希望大家都会做好准备，做最好的冲刺。加油！

不要放弃，继续努力，没有什么事是不能完成的。

复杂的心情

有时候不得不把事情想得太复杂，当经历了一些事情或当你看透某些事情，或许已经太迟了。所以说，每当你要做一件事之前，千万要三思而后行，要不然你就会后悔莫及。为何我会这样说，因为就是看透某些事情，我会害怕，因为我们不懂下一刻会面对什么样的问题，但是我知道，只要做回自己，因为我们活着不是为了取悦别人，而是活得更精彩，对不？

我不懂看透别人的心在想些什么，我就是我，我不必去猜透别人的心怎么想我，如果是这样，我会活得很累，我是活在别人的影子之中。我不想这样，我只想快快乐乐，自由自在的去生活。

希望未来的日子我不会被这复杂的心情所牵绕，我不喜欢这样！

I've got an ugly face!

My face is getting worst and worst. Since last year September til December, I had been visiting two dermatologists to cure my ugly face yet til now, ya until today my face is not fully recovered yet. And my beloved pimples are growing out each day. When i stand in front of the mirror, i feel that I do look horrible ugly. I lost all my confidence to face people and sometimes i don't feel like going out to anywhere because I do mind how people look in to my face. I tried many ways to stop pimples growing out or to cure those scars on my face BUT T____T. Frankly, i'd been wasted my parents' money for almost 1k to cure my face yet it doesnt show any improvement. Now i'm planning to change another doc which i received alot of positive feedback from frens, A famous dermatologist near fair pak area. Gonna pay him a visit real soon. I want to have a healthy face before my sister's wedding dinner because i have to face alot of people. I want to build up my confidence.