你给我静！

所谓祸从口出，有时候，明知道有些话会伤害别人又何必说呢？也许你自己本身不明白也不会体会到，我也不明白你的用意，为何一而再再而三的伤害我？伤害我没要紧，但我不容许你伤害我的家人。我家人没有得罪你，也不容许你说他们什么。难听的说，我们家的事不用你管，也容不得你管。

当你在批评别人的时候，请想想你自己是不是很好的一个榜样，别自打嘴巴。当你对我说很难听的话的时候，我没有反驳你，我默默地承受是因为我懂得尊重别人。不像你，说或之前没有用你的大脑想清楚哪些话该说哪些话不该说。你伤害我，我可以忍。直到今天你又对我说了一些很难听的话，不仅伤害我，伤害我家人也伤害了我的他。我真的很生气，也不明白为何你要这样。我开始很恨你这样。恨你到无法自拔。无论你对我说些什么，我都觉得有敌意。

其实，我只想问你，你是不是嫉妒我过得比你好？ 我觉得是吧！

我就是我

我就是我，在我心里，其实有一道门紧紧地封锁着，任何人都不能踏入进去。其实有些时候，我懂我把自己锁得太紧，我自己也搞不清楚为何会这样。所以说，在这个世界里，没有人能够真正能够明白我，就因为我不容许任何人踏入这道门，我不希望别人能看透我在想什么，就连我最亲的家人和Hubby，我可以说，他们永远是没办法理解我。没有人可以企图要那把钥匙把那道门打开就因为锁得很紧，你越想理解我，我就会越离你越远。曾经有告诉朋友这一件事，她说，每一个人都有自己的故事是不想让任何人懂的。你同意吗？

20/4/12 Visited fourth Dermatologist ( Dr. Foong)

A sudden decision to visit famous Dr. Foong today. And the fees charged is surprisingly expensive and it's over my estimated budget. I do hope this is the last dermatologist i visit. Having a skin problem is not easy to cure, when you yourself have experienced the problem, you would understand how suffer it is and yet the problems follow you for such a long period.

First Time

17/4/12 The very first time I joined paintball game with them. Who are them? They are my closed friends in my university life.

18/4/12 The very first time i had steambot with them.

Suppose to say, I do really feel glad to have them with me all the time. We have fun always, we have discussion for mid term and final exam, we go for dinner and lunch almost everyday. And I know, our university's life is ended so soon, and we might have less chances to meet in future, so I do appreciate each moment we're togeta. We chat, we laugh, we share, we tease each others and still, there's no gap in between of us. All these good memories will remain silently in my heart and i woudn't forget everyone of u after we have graduated. All the best to u guys and jia you for our finals.

伤心

为何我的脸总是不能好起来？痘痘一直没有停止过出现，让我不懂要怎样做才能快快好起来？我试过很多方式来医治，但都没见的有好过。看了三次医生，用了半年的时间都不能医好。是我的身体有问题吗？为什么连医生都不能把我的脸给医好？还是我真的要改变我的生活方式了？没有熬夜，没有煎炸食物，没有咖啡，没有 Laksa & Tom Yam, 要保持早睡早起，喝足够的水。。：（

Finals 快到了

Finals 要到咯。希望大家都会做好准备，做最好的冲刺。加油！

不要放弃，继续努力，没有什么事是不能完成的。

复杂的心情

有时候不得不把事情想得太复杂，当经历了一些事情或当你看透某些事情，或许已经太迟了。所以说，每当你要做一件事之前，千万要三思而后行，要不然你就会后悔莫及。为何我会这样说，因为就是看透某些事情，我会害怕，因为我们不懂下一刻会面对什么样的问题，但是我知道，只要做回自己，因为我们活着不是为了取悦别人，而是活得更精彩，对不？

我不懂看透别人的心在想些什么，我就是我，我不必去猜透别人的心怎么想我，如果是这样，我会活得很累，我是活在别人的影子之中。我不想这样，我只想快快乐乐，自由自在的去生活。

希望未来的日子我不会被这复杂的心情所牵绕，我不喜欢这样！

I've got an ugly face!

My face is getting worst and worst. Since last year September til December, I had been visiting two dermatologists to cure my ugly face yet til now, ya until today my face is not fully recovered yet. And my beloved pimples are growing out each day. When i stand in front of the mirror, i feel that I do look horrible ugly. I lost all my confidence to face people and sometimes i don't feel like going out to anywhere because I do mind how people look in to my face. I tried many ways to stop pimples growing out or to cure those scars on my face BUT T____T. Frankly, i'd been wasted my parents' money for almost 1k to cure my face yet it doesnt show any improvement. Now i'm planning to change another doc which i received alot of positive feedback from frens, A famous dermatologist near fair pak area. Gonna pay him a visit real soon. I want to have a healthy face before my sister's wedding dinner because i have to face alot of people. I want to build up my confidence.

I'm so busy

I'm so busy recently due to the dateline of passing up the FYP. And there are mid terms and assignments that make me to throw aside in order to complete the fyp first. it's so tortured, really.

=(

Genting tomoro

Yeah, tomorrow i'll be off to Genting

A place that I'm longing to go

I'm curious how the casino looks like

How large is the casino is

Finally the day im waiting for is coming to me tomorrow

Gotta enjoy myself to the fullest

Guys, enjoy for the long weekend holidays ^^

Last week of holidays

假期就这么快来到了最后一个星期，好想再有多三个星期的假期，想要无忧无虑的呆在家，什么都不想做，那就最好不过了。唉，有时候人总要面对现实。在来临的这个学期，是最辛苦的，除了有堆积如山的assignment and midterms,最可怕的就是要完成那份永远很难完成的FYP，过后就是FYP presentation。无奈！

在这新的一年里，希望这一年是我最后一年的读书生涯，希望这一年我能够顺顺利利的毕业，希望hubby 能找到他所要的工作，开始他的人生大计。也希望这年我也可以踏入社会工作，我不年轻，是时候赚钱！谢谢爸爸这五年来供我读书还有我的开销。辛苦了。毕业以后您就少了一个负担！

Holidaysssss

第八天假期了。虽然都是呆在家里没哪儿去，但是我就是很享受这样的生活。每天就是起床，服侍jackie, 看戏，吃零食，喝咖啡，睡午觉，看戏，宵夜等等。这就是我每天必做的事。很闷对吧？但我很享受。不用读书的日子真的很好过，同意吗？

想起考试的日子，对，我有超多的时间去温习，但这让我变得很懒惰，很不用心的去温习。当考试的时间越来越逼近的时候，我会开始紧张，我会向家人抱怨我不想继续读书，我想踏出社会工作了，因为读书真的很辛苦的，因为这个course我不喜欢，所以我比别人都读得比较辛苦。没有人明白我要的是什么，没关系，我没的选择，我只能一直往前走。跌倒了，只能站起来继续走吧，这个社会里，你跌倒了，没有人会停下脚步扶你一把，只会落井下石，所以你一定要坚强，不能让别人瞧不起你即使你有多不优秀。无论怎样都好，家人和你的另一伴都会给你最好的支持。

Study Week

All utarians are having study week now. All the best to every utarians who r gonna sit for finals soon. Study hard and smart. Looking forward to the semester break. xD

Flea Market 23/11/2011

The very first time i worked with hubby for the flea market which held by Utar. The day before the flea market, i was so excited about it because i had never been to that situation before. Alright, we started shifting stuffs from 8 sumthing in the early morning. Yea, i can totally experience how tired of working..i stood there for hours, i kept yawning and hoping to get bak to my hostel and sleep 99. But i couldnt do so cos hubby couldnt handle alone so i've to be there. I was afraid when hubby was away. not because i am afraid to deal with customers, the main reason is i dunno about the functions or features of the products. when hubby was away, i was totally stunned and speechless when customers asked me bout the products. But slowly, i can get to noe bit by bit.

I am so interested to buy polaroid camera since long. And yesterday in the flea market, i noticed there was a gang of ppl holding polariod camera. At first i thought they are selling it, but i heard them shouted in this way : " hey, come take photo with your loved one." then oni i realised its not for selling. How sad is tat. I intended to ask bout the price but then i was so busy dealing with customers and hubby said its wasted if i get one. BUT I KNOW I WILL GET IT ONE DAY.

Yeapppyyy ^^

Notice my blog title? Obviously i'm so happy today. I'll be off to KL for 2 days with hubby and also his gang of friends. Yeapyy, can i don't control myself and shop til drop? :p Hubby is going to step into working life so soon, and i know chance to go trip with him is getting fewer and fewer! and mayb wil be far distance from him to meet each other. arrrg..i wish to finish my studies soon and fly over to his side. LOL

Visited doctor

Visited doctor yesterday. I felt so nervous because the doctor is an Indian, which means i've to speak English with him. I can't speak well actually. =) Hmm, doctor gave me lots of advice and wanted me to rmb, include :
- no chocolate
-no ice-cream
-no Mcd
-no fried foods
-no Tom yam & laksa
-no chili
- u must have 8 hours of sleep
- drink 8 glasses of water
-eat more fruits and vegetables
- DO NOT pinch your pimples


He told me, majority of the people who are having the skin problem as me, usually take 3 months to recover, but they r some minority of ppl might take beyond that period. I hope im classified into the majority gang. Since my skin is  getting more serious, i don't like to go out to face any frens of mine, perhaps i mind how they look into my face, and ask me why my face turns to be like that. I've no idea. 


From todays onwards, i must stop myself from eating my favourite foods as listed above. It's reali very torture when see my siblings are eating. :(( 

visit dermatologist tomorrow

两个月前，经朋友介绍去看了Greentown 的皮肤医生，
她说，要治好你的脸你需要耐心，不是一天或一星期你就能见到你所要的效果。
一个月后，我的脸还是没有好转，
还越来越严重。
之前呢，pimples只是在额头，但现在呢，both cheeks full of pimples T__T
我开始觉得我无脸见人，
我觉得自子很丑。
我发现我没有了自信，
我害怕别人用奇怪的眼神看着我的脸。
朋友都问我为何我的脸会如此
我只能说我也不明白。
朋友，请别胡乱用facial products,
不然你会和我一样，
后悔莫及！
明天我会去见另一个皮肤医生，
真希望我的脸能彻底回复以前那样。

Dad's Birthday

Tomorrow will be going to celebrate my beloved dad's birthday. Siblings purposely come bek from KL juz to hv an early celebration with dad. He doesn't know about that. We secretly ordered cake and arrange simple celebration for him. 


*happy birthday dad. hereby wishing you to stay healthy alwiz though i'm alwiz a bai ga lui to spend the most in this family yet u didn't grumble anything to me ♥ *

Exam ended

Exam ended last Saturday. And I can say that this semester finals, i did very bad. Yup, every paper i did was terribly bad especially for the mathematics paper. I could jz say that im scared of figures. I dun like figures. I alwiz get bullied by maths paper or even account paper. But what to do? BA course does include all these subs which couldnt run away from accepting them. Even how hard i conquer over them, but i guess "they" alwiz beat me and im alwiz the loser. T.T 


Forget about the that, I shall just enjoy my one month holiday now. But..but..no trip during this semester break, the onli things to be done is squatting at home and "goyang kaki". LOL.


Face condition is getting bad and friends nvr stop asking what happen to my face. I could jz answer them " i dunno". :(  

Smooth Registration

BA students are the last batch to register for subjects, i guess for the 3rd time we're being arranged to register the LAST. But i feel thankful that i could register the subs i planned earlier just within 10 mins. I never expect that i could reli log into the course registration within a short time. Because basically as i blif every utarian has experienced the difficulty of logging in or even can't register for even one sub for at least half an hour. It proves tat utar alwiz has lousy system n yet nvr expect utar wil make improvement.

Study break has started. Stress feeling is getting deeper and deeper as day passes. Wishing all the utarians best of luck and ga yao for their studies.