stil awake

yes,til now im stil blaming myself for the mistake i had made
the feeling is juz like couldnt get off frm me
seriously it annoys me loads
well,as my fren n hubby told me,it was a PAST tense
so dont let it makes me to feel unhappy
but..im reali sad n regret of my stupid action
how i wish the time can reverse bak n i hav one more chance to make the decision
ntg i can do except blaming myself
feel so much sorry to him as im the one who destroying the whole plan
guilty~guilty~guilty~
juz hate myself damn much

well..av1 should look forward bt nt backwards
i wil juz keep tis deep inside my heart
keep reminding myself nt to repeat the mistakes
but sumtimes things are unpredictable
n seems like its fated
cant predict wat wil happen next
=p a piece of advice
appreciate wat u hav now

To my hubby ♥
yes,u snatch my heart away
yes,i found the right person as my Mr.Right n i swear u're the last one who can stay inside my heart
with yr presence,yes,u lead me to a cheerful life
yes,im not lonely to pass thru single bits of my life
yes,my life fills wif yr luv,care,concern.....alot...
little promise made by myself
i wouldnt make yr heart gets hurt anymore
yes,plz accept all my apologies frm me
i noe i reali do it badly to u often
sorry...million of sorry
i promise in the coming days,months,years til endless
i wil b the one who hold yr hands tight
walk into the determined path 2geta wif u
cheer n light up yr life with no worries n burdens
i PROMISE
allow me to say a simple three words to u
I LOVE U HUBBY
I ♥ YOU

*seriously waiting for yr next return*
muackz ♥

sick

stomachache around 6am tis morning..
went to toilet once..
few mins passed by..went to the 2nd time..
seriously afraid of having stomachace :(

today woke up a little bit early to hav breakfast wif hubby's family members
they all are very friendly n make jokes owaz..
like to be with them,frankly^^
ordered many types of foods but i didnt hav appetite to eat cz i was nt feeling well
after tat went to hubby's house...
stayed around 3 hours there..
i juz dunno y i like to stick wif him all the time..
juz like to lie on his body or shoulder to watch drama 2geta ♥
so sad he wil b leaving soon
:(
reali hm seh dak..heartache..
dunno when can meet u again..
perhaps 3 weeks?? or even one month??
nvm..i shall juz wait..

week 9 is cuming,as i mentioned in the previous posts
3 assignments nid to b passed up tis week..
but luckily,a gud news..
one assignments has postponed to week 10 onli pass up..
woohoo...more time to complete yea^^

stil recalling bak wat my hubby had done the surprise for me..
regret+happy
sigh!! T.T

well,hav to stop right now
enjoy the weekend av1
:)

Touched surprise T.T

he secretly came bak frm KL on thursday..
i didnt noe bout it at all..
so sad tat day i had bak to ipoh..
actuali i planned not to bak ipoh as two mid terms fell on fri n sat..
but i did afraid of loneliness..
at the end,after my lecturer class then headed bak to ipoh..
had a little arguement wif him as he told me he asked his "fren" to pass me the gift..
i felt tat its reli meaningless if u ask sum1 to pass the things to u but not u directly pass it to me..
all the while i had been mistaken u..
at nite..u called me..
n asked me once again whether i can bak early on fri~~
i rejected u once again as i was stil having heavy mood towards u..
actuali u were in kampar tat time..
since u wanted to giv me surprise,u chose to hide all the feelings deep inside ur heart n juz allowed me to put all my anger towards u..
n yet u didnt blame me anything..
i feel so much guilty now!!!
sorry hubby..

when it came to fri..
around 1.20pm,u sent sms to me..
as usual,u wil b having ur lunch in kl..
so i didnt think so much..
i juz tot u wan to "tam" me happy..
but i stil didnt turn gud n being rude to u again T.T
u asked me what time wil i bak kampar again??
since u said ur "fren" wil b leaving kampar soon..
so i forced to bak kampar early...
i drove in btw the speed of 100-120..
wau..can imagine how fast i drove tat day..
hee^^
after reaching kampar,received ur cal again..
u asked me to go down n wait ur "fren" for his cuming..
i ran down in a hurry with my notes..
kept peeping outside..
suddenly...HE ♥ appeared in front of me..
i was so surprised..
reli reli surprise...
i stared at him for few seconds n stil couldnt blif tat he was right in front of me..
yup...its reli him..
i ran towards him n gave him a tight hug
*hugs*
tears flew down
thanks hubby for givin me a such surprise..
a light kiss for u..thanks HUBBY..
luv u deep inside my heart..
in other words..if i didnt bak ipoh on thurs..
i could hav 2 days to be wif u..
sigh T.T
wasted one day
:(:(
u explained avthing to me..
ur "fren" u referred to was YOU actuali..
HAHA..i reli get cheated by u..
hubby..u did a great job
*claps*

well..v celebrated our anniversary at Pizza Hut.
wif Stanley n his gf..
lol..i was so shy to face her actuali as im not veli friendly enuf
hee^^ the cake tat bought by Hubby n travelled frm KL

overall...the surprise i luv it so much
♥
thanks HUBBY
i do appreciate wat u hav done for me^^
deep in my heart,i make a small promise for myself..
i swear..i wil never break ur heart make u sad anymore
:)

muackz..
I LOVE YOU

3rd Year Anniversary ♥

well..2day is a special day for me n my hubby
cz its our 3rd year anniversary
but dont get the chance to celebrate wif u cz u're nt wif me right now
perhaps wil celebrate once u r bak to ipoh..
♥
hubby,allow me to say a very big THANKS to u..
thanks for yr luv;
thanks for yr care;
thanks for yr concern;
thanks for yr jokes;
aiks...too many to thank..
he's juz so best in my heart..
thanks again
♥

its raining right now..
haven taken my dinner yet
n i reli feel tired of thinking where to eat..
so i guess in the cuming weeks i wil prefer to oder delivery..
its a right choice for me as im a lazy worm to go out as well
hee^^

as i mentioned in the previous post..
tis week is a hectic week for me..
tonnes of works to be completed
yet stil nid to do revision for 2 mid terms
omg >.<''
its pretty tired..
feel so relieve tat tomoro's morning class is cancelled..
so tonite i can burn the midnight oil for my mid term
:( so sad

hmmm..nt having gud mood 2day
didnt noe the reason as well..
got angry easily but luckily my frens didnt mind of it..
sorry yea..

*miss u so much right now though i juz received yr calls few mins ago*
T.T

Week 8

time flies sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fast
it comes to week 8
means its the tough week for me n as well as my groupmates
3 mid terms,within tis week nid to complete 3 assignments as the due date is at week 9
anybody can help saving me out frm this??
totally in stress n for sure i wil b turning in2 hot temper..
sorry guys..if i couldnt control my emotion plz dun blame me..
i noe u guys r in streesful condition as me..
well...i blif the tough moment wil pass soon

tomoro wil b sitting for my japanese mid term.
the most hated sub among 7 subs..
stil weak in recognising those words...
JAPANESE LANGUAGE is reli nt my cup of tea
:(

my best fren ----> ULCERS
growing avwhere again..
now is in the tongue..
i wonder y "they" luv me so much??
the 1 in my throat is the most painful for me..
i frown whenever i swallow my foods..
sobs..plz get away frm me..T.T

well..2 more days is my 3rd year anniversary wif my hubby
♥
do nt hav the chance to celebrate tis important day wif u
its ok...wil celebrate when u're bac to me..
feel like i hav many things to talk to u..
i hav not met u for 2 weeks..
perhaps is one month..
cz i noe u're nt able to cum bac due to sum reasons..
how sad is tat..but luckily..
i wil receive over 5 calls frm u a day
thx hubby..muacks
thx for the gift u hav bought to me..
u told me is an exp gift..
stil wondering wats tat...
hehe ^^

gotta do revision now..
gud nite av1
:)

STRESS

since when i hav not been updating my blog?
i guess im too busy these few days wif my assignments n busy studying for my mid term..
yet,i find out tat i do nt hav time to complete so many things all at once..
as i noe,v hav just completed onli one assignment out of 6..
5 more to go..
OMG...i wish i reli could run away frm tis..

thursday went to visit a company named UNISEM..
wow,its reli indeed large company located at Simpang Pulai..
there are more than thousand of workers i guess..
so hard to find parking in the parking lots..
thanks Mr.Ooi for spending yr time to giv explaination of the process of the company
:)

b4 going to to visit the company..
a little arguements arrised among us..
i guess there is a gap btw us..
nvm..its ok..
i wil just b myself without caring how u guys think of me..
i stil hav my bestie ---> Charlotte to be wif me all the time..
HAHA..♥

im sick..ulcers growing avwhere inside my mouth..
one at the lips,one below my tongue n one in my throat..
can imagine how painful is it??
so much painful whenever i swallow my foods..
wat happen to me??
ulcer is my best fren 4ever
T.T

:)
hope to stay more happily than b4 wif u..
sorry i made u sad once again..
u're sick n yet nid to make me feel happy..
sorry my dear..
it cant deny tat u're the best one..
i just very much hate myself for being liketat..
yea,seriously..
im weak in controlling my temper..
and i used to put all my anger towards u..
n u..accept all my grumbles,accept all the angers frm me..
haiz..y am i tat bad??
sigh!! seriously nid to change myself frm worst to gud..
HAHA..can i do tat???
ERM...ermmmmm....
perhaps...i CAN :)

tomoro wil b having my 1st mid term..
stil left one chapter not yet finish..
wil continue studying after tis..
wish me luck..people..
:)

Mixed Feelings~

sunday again...
time flies reli fast..
sisters are on the way bac to kl..
so sad..duno when can c them again..
perhaps two weeks or more than that..
T.T
im alone in my room...facing my laptop..
ntg i can do except fb,drama,assignments..
mum starts grumbling me tat i shouldnt face too long of my laptop
as it harms my health oso..hehe...

my 3rd year anniversary is cuming soon..
any idea of how to celebrate it???
gosh..im weak in planning all these types of thgs..
nid to seek help frm frens again..
he told me he has bought an exp anniversary gift for me
thx to my beloved hubby ♥
looking forward to meeting u my hubby..
but when u gonna cum bac to me..??
T.T
dun tel me another 2 weeks i hav to wait u..

tonite hav to start studying for my coming mid term which is on fri..
theory paper again..boring..boring..
lots of theories n terms nid to memorise..
yea..study life is like that..
v hav no choice..juz work more harder..

stop right now..
happy weekend av1
:)

Busy days

these few days were busy wif my tonnes of works..
seems those works are endless..
whenever think of the assignments..
mood fluctuates up n down..
easy to get angry..
ya..sumtimes nid to control my emotion or else my frens wil start blaming on my attitude..
hee^^

as i mentioned for the last post..
suppose our group members hav to pay a visit to the company..
but,in the early morning,i received a bad news frm my fren
she told me the company postponed to next week...
oh gosh!!
its totally afftecting our plans..
as v stil nid to cope wif other assignments..
no choice..hav to go on the cuming thursday..
after tat..wil sit for mid term on fri..
super hectic life is cuming nearer n nearer..
i'll definitely get mad soon..
as v plan,after settling all those assginements..v shall enjoy to the MAX!!!
shooping...movie..mayb ipoh one day trip..
so bad tat i hav to b the driver..

this week hubby is nt cuming bac..
its ok..im slowly getting used to it without him by my side..
im getting independent as i can..
manage things as i could..
say YES to myself..

gud nite av1
:)

~.~

tomoro v hav to pay a visit to a company which is located at Simpang Pulai..
its one of our assignments..
feel veli nervous bout what questions shud v ask during the interview sessions??
yor..i cant speak veli fluent english..
hahaa..i wil juz push my frens in front to ask all bout it..
ngek ngek..
im so bad..

not having gud feeling when attending the classes today..
mostly is regarding the problem..
am i reli making the wrong decision??
i do feel guilty..
but wat action shud i take..??
shared my problem wif one of my fren..
yea..she reli und me veli well..
i juz wan to protect myself frm hurting..
its veli fair for me if i do tis..
plz dun blame me if u realise tat im changing in2 another personalities..
im changing..
wat do i change??
slowly u wil get to noe..
but a phrase tat strongly describes me..
GAME OF LOVE,IM DEFINITELY A LOSER
:(
im nt the one u met last time..hope tat u can accept the new me

my fren dated me to watch football match later..
aiks...i hav no single interest to watch football..
haha...
whenever they chat bout foorball..
i juz keep quiet cz i noe ntg bout it..
feel shy..LOL

tomoro hav to drive to campus as my fren doesnt wan to go..
nvm..
going to bed soon..
gus nite av1
♥

^^

yest didnt get to update my blog cz i was veli tired..
yest's class started at 9.30am..
means i hav to drive bac frm ipoh around 7 sumthing..
when v all reached the class..
v were so shocked tat y the class was empty..
didnt think too much n sat thr n waited for our tutor..
15mins passed...n yet nobody came in..
my frens went to the office n asked izit our class has been postponed or changed to other venue
after they came bac onli got 2 noe that our tutor went for training..
WHY???y onli 5 of us never know bout it..=.=''
so lame...

for 2day..finally my presentation was over..
hurray~~~~
but stil gt alot of assignments r waiting for me..
3 more weeks to complete..
within these 3 weeks...3 mid terms too :(
today's mood was nt gud towards sum1..
was nt having gud attitude towards the person..
y i wil get so much angry of the person???
for me..i wouldnt hate or angry my frens around me..
but tat person who makes me to stay away frm..
nvm...juz tel myself nt to make me down juz cz of the person!!

well...make a decision for myself regarding sumthing
n there is no turning bac once i make decision..
mayb u wil oppose me...but no doubt i wil change..
tats me..sorry if u dun agree wif me..
cz i sacrifice too much..
its time for me to stop n hav a rest..
i'll juz enjoy my life here without any burden..

as the saying goes..
"HAPPY GOES LUCK"
i wil stay more happily than b4..PERHAPS..

:)

♥ Outing wif Hubby ♥

went to JJ wif hubby today~~
planned to watch movie thr but the latest time is 5 sumthing..
so..cancelled!!! sobs T.T
i missed it again..
i hav missed so many movies...im outdated...oh no!!!
after tat..headed to my lovely Padini..
saw one Seed short pant..it cost RM99
he shoke his head when i told him i wished to buy tat pants..
he said tat im reli wasting money..
sigh~~ended up didnt buy anything in Padini..
next..headed to Vinci n bought a slipper..
i felt heartache when i saw hubby sitting down thr n waiting for me to try the shoes..
i noe he was tired tat time yet didnt grumble anything 2 me..
thx hubby ♥
my both legs were damn pain as i wore high heel shoe..
its injured...so pain T.T
hubby treated me a large mocha blended..
wow...my love one..he ordered chicago cheesecake..
yaks...i hate cheese...super duper hate..
veli smelly..HAHAHA
sorry :)

tomoro he is leaving again..
hope to meet him again b4 he leaves..
another 3 weeks i hav to wait him for his return..
:( so sad !

Headache ~.~''

veli veli headache for the assignments...
one of the assignment v nid to search for multinational company..
T.T
my group members r trying their bez in searching companies...
means next week v shall go n visit the company if the company does allow us to visit..
v shud go by next week or else v wouldnt hav enuf time to complete the assignment n the due date is on week 9..
v stil hav other subs' assignments nid to complete as well..

as for the Business Research..
im the leader of this sub..
haven started to do anything n it shud b passed up on week 9 too...
my members...plz do help me along though i noe u guys hav ur own responsibilities..
feel so stress..
week 7 wil b having mid term..
week 8 wil b having 2 mid terms..
week 9 nid to pass up 3 assignments and one role play
week 10 onwards til 13 is presentation..
omg..i damn busy..busy...and busy...
how could i manage them??
i wish 2 run away frm these..seek sum help frm others..
well...v r advised to b strong to cope wif these thgs
in future when u're starting to step into working life..
there r more works compare as wat im having now..
juz treat it like im training myself to manage my thgs well...
i wil try..i wil reli try..

:) tonite he wil b cuming bac..
hopefully he wouldnt change his mind..
reli hope to c u..
i wana go shopping wif u...
movie,shopping,eat...alot..wish to do these thgs wif u...
i wil giv u a tight hug when u're bac to me
*hugs*
hehe.. =D

EEeeeeepoh ♥

got bac home around 1.30pm today...
took a short nap..
actuali planned to take a long nap but half way of sleeping
received sweet cal frm him ♥
well..
since i cant fall into sleep again..
went out to pack my lovely food --> Laksa
due to my mouth has 4 ulcers
it caused me so much difficulty to finish my bowl of laksa..
so bad
finished one episode of drama..eyes oredi half closed
swtiched off my laptop n directly went to sleep
guess wat..
i slept for 3 hours n not willing to wake up..
how cum i can b so tired??

mum came bac..
asked bout how's my ear..
i told her its okie but im having sore throat n ulcers as well
she urged me to c doctor..
i rejected..i dun wan tablets of medicine to be wif me again..
im weak i noe..
wat causes me to feel liketat??
i hav no idea oso..
my mum told me my face has turned fat n asked me izit the medicine's effect??
i hav no idea oso...
i juz feel veli veli tired..
sumore i stil nid to finish up my presentation slides n assignments n journals
plz..i hav to rest more...
:(

he told me he wil b cuming bac this week..
hopefully he wouldnt change his mind..
i hav not been meeting him for 3 weeks
how sad is tat..
miss him so much...♥
thx 4 ur concern...i noe u're shy to speak it out to me
but nvm...i und..
feel touched once u scolded me owaz stay up too late juz indeed to watch drama..
feel sweet when u ask me to slp early..
u do reli care me i noe..
glad to b wif u..
dear..im here waiting u to cum bac to me yea
♥
cant wait 2 c u..muacks

juz got to noe i hav to go KL to interview one of the company
nt so willing to go thr as its a one day trip..
i requested my fren nt to stay overnite thr cz it might b veli costly to us..

ntg to write..
stop here
:)
gud nite av1