Bye 2010

Fuyoh, gonna say gudbye to 2010 and welcome a brand new year of 2011. Hope av1 does hav a prosperous year ahead. Well, since tmr is a public holiday as declared by our PM yest, my dad n sisters not going to work, so they're coming bec tmr. Woo hoo.. how happy am i. I love all my sisters coming bec n chit chat til midnight. ♥ My house will full of noises n laughters and can obviously be seen both of my parents are having smiley faces all day long. Lols.

New Design again

Special thanks to Lee Jien for helping me to decorate my blog til it looks so nice and i'm so in love with it. And another girl who helps me alot is Ebel. Both of them do help me alot in decorating my blog n i noe i've been burdening their time to answer all those 2pid questions frm me. Sorry yea. I do reli hope i've the skills like them to decorate my blog n yet avtime i try, the results show FAIL. Aiks. Seriously to tell, i;ve no computer skills, i'm weak in all kind of computer stuffs. The onli things i noe is to surf internet like FB, Msn, Google or check for my mails. These all i noe. Ppl, how's my blog? Hees:)

Argh. It comes to the end of december, nope, suppose to b saying in this way, when it comes to the end of every month, i'll b facing the same problem --> BROKE. Where do i spend my money? Totally no idea abt it. I wish to fill my holidays with meaningful tasks rather than jus sqautting at home n watching pps all day long. Any idea? Hope that i can go for swimming ( my lovely hobby) or go for bowling? Or cooking? Duhh. Lazy worms start crawling inside my body. Perhaps i shall invite some of my frens to go with me but...who do i ask for?? Hubby?? Maybe!

What to do?

It seems that every sem break i'll b faced with the same pro. That's = nothing i can do at home. How to pass my weeks til uni reopens? But i don't wish my break ends so early as i noe the new semester i'll b more n more busy than previous semesters. I've 6 subs next sem plus one Final Year Project. FYP is a kind of hard-to-do project. Seeing all my frens suffer to do this fyp, i guess my life wil turn dull once i start to do that. =(

Well, hubby seems has got lots of plans during this xmas. But avthing stil in progress of planning. I wish to go Penang, KL to shop. I want new clothes, new shoes, new bag, avthing new! Hees =) new year new life.

Finally

Yea. Finally my exam is ended by today. I'm officially FREE now. YES!! Happy to the maximum. I've been suffering for 2 weeks due to exam period but now, looking bec the previous days, it's just a relieved! But frankly to say, the paper i did today is not well done. Same problem, time management again and again. Imagine spending 45mins just to complete one sub- question. Totally have no idea how to complete others on time. So rush to finish till all my writtings seems ugly. Sorry to the lecturer who marks my paper, i guess my handwriting will need u to spend some time to read. :)

I'm in holidays now. Woo Hoo. How happy am i. Hubby has one more paper 2 go, which is tomoro. Seeing him to suffer of memorizing those handouts. i feel somewhat heartache for him. Jia you and hereby wish him all the best. We've been sticking 2geta all day long during exam period. So much H.A.P.P.Y. to b sticking with him. We play while we're studying. we disturb each other while we're studying, i turn mad when i realise tat i couldn't finish up my notes on time and put anger towards u but u purposely stay up late just to accompany me to study though u're sick n tired. Sorry. :( Thanks hubby.

Wat to do during this 3 weeks holidays? I guess i shall just stay at home repeating the same tasks avday! Xmas is coming but this year, same do as the previous years, never celebrate in this special day. Hopefully to spend my time with him. ♥

Stop right here. Take care my frens. I shall c u all next year. Byez :)

YAY!!

YaY!! i've just clear 2 papers. 1 more to go. But nothing to b happy abt as one more tough sub is going to come to me. No guideline how to study for it. Questions will not b asking frm handouts, totally 100% application. Argh! I'm weak in that. So how? :(

Today is not a gud day for me as my "auntie" pays me a visit. T.T Stomach suffers pain. No appetite to eat. No energy to do avthing, how do i study later on? I'm stil feeling tired though i took a long nap just now. It seems not enough. These 2 days i slept less than 5 hours. Imagine that!! First sub, slept at 4am, then woke up at 6.30am to continue my studies. After the paper, came bec home and study for the next sub til 2am and then woke up at 6.30am. How tired is that? Exam period is reli torturing so much. :(

I totally don't like those childish minded guy especially those who update their status. The way they post and the way they say, can reflect how childish is their thinking. Sometimes reli beh tahan them. Halo, u're adult. Please be matured la. Aduh!!

Exam is GONNA start soon

GOSH!! Final is just 2 days frm now. Study week is gone. I've limited time to cope with 2 subs continuously. How bad utar arranges all this for me. Reli too bad. Sigh! Seeing accounting students have done their finals and enjoyed their holidays now, how jealous am i though soon it wil b my turn. BUT my finals lasted 2 weeks. T.T Can't wait for my one month holidays to come to me. Well, tomoro wil b heading bec to kampar n for the 1st time i'll b staying there til my last paper finishes. The very 1st time. Perhaps i'll hav more motivation to study when staying at kampar? PERHAPS!

Kay,hav to stop right now continue with my "lovely" notes. All the best to me.

Woo Hoo~

Woo Hoo~ Finally i've bought my lovely DKNY perfume. The very 1st perfume in my 21 years of life. Haha. It sounds very ridiculous right? I get influenced by my sis and as well as my fren to try out perfume. Well, I do like the fragrance of my newly-bought perfume. ♥

Currently i'm stil busy studying for my finals which is started on next tuesday. Avday i'm like passing a monotone life. Wake up, study,eat,study,coffee,sleep. Avday repeat the same. Duhh. Hope the exam ends early and i shall throw all the notes away.

Well, stop right now. Gambateh to those who gonna sit for finals. Jia you :)

Study week

Notice my title? Study week. Yeah. It's my self-declare study week. It's just week 7 but most of the subs have ady finished covering :) Yeah. When it comes to an end of the semester,which means it wil come to the exam,students hav to start doing revision,facing pressure,how many cups of coffee to accompany, sleepless nights and etc. Yes,these are all the symptoms of exams. All students will definitely go thru all these phases.:(

My final exam's timetable

-> 14/12 Consumer Behavior

-> 15/12 Entrepreneur and Business Ethnics

-> 20/12 Recruitment and Resourcing

The very 1st time i hav 2 papers continously. I wouldn't noe how to study for it. Damn stress as two papers are theory papers. How to squeeze them all 2geta? Pray hard i can reli do it very well.

Currently having sore throat. I guess i had eaten the fish and chips that caused me to suffer this. Need to drink plenty of water to kick the pain away.

Gonna start studying now. All the best av1 :) Rmb take enuf of rest ya.

Again =(

Again. I'm suffering for my ear problem again and again. This time is quite serious as compared to the previous I injured my ear. Today i went to consult doc and when doc took the tool and put it inside my ear, the doc said : "wow,yr ear has many dirty things inside." Actually i noe, those dirty thingy blocks me frm hearing. I'm weak in hearing or listening to anything. I could onli rely on my left ear to listen avthing. My poor ear. I'm hoping "u" could recover fast. I'm damn scared of u seriously. With this, i'm damn moody for the whole day and tend to put all my temper to my hubby. Sorry abt that. No one can und my feelings to suffer all this. I locked myself in the room, do wateva things i like whitout burdening anything or anyone. Somehow i love the feeling to b alone sumtimes. No one disturbs u. No one interrupts yr life. How good it is. Sigh! This week I will be accompanied by those tablets of medicine again.

Finals is just around the corner. This semester i hav onli one mid term, but i just got to noe frm the lecturer that it still will cover frm chap 1 til 13. OMG..its damn alot to squeeze them inside my brain. The previous semester i onli needed to study onli 7-8 handouts onli..but now. =( What can i do? Just work hard le. Gambate to all my frens. :)

It's late now. Shud have off to bed now. Gud nite av1.

Sick again

I have been sick for 2 days again. It was reli torturing my life. I was attacked by food poisonous and at night i had fever. Duhh.. I was so suffering. But thanks Hubby to be with me all the time to take care of me and i know i'm burdening his time to study for his mid term. I'm sorry. I wouldn't want to be so weak but sad to say, nowadays i'm too weak to battle against viruses. I'm reli too weak. Pls go off frm me. I need to study for my finals soon. I wan a healthy body and betta condition to fight for the best.

Mum urged me to see doc. Yes, once again, i've made her worry abt me as well as my dad. My mum scolded me for nt consulting doc when i'm sick. I used to sleep whole day when i'm sick. Yest 1 slept for 16 hours yet I did'nt feel gud at all. I just wan to lie on bed and didn't want to get off frm the bed. I had severe headache but still need to attend fren's birthday party as i promised to go. Well, the party was so nice and fun of cuz.

This morning mum called me 3 times but I missed the calls cuz i was sleeping like pig. Didn't manage to receive her calls. Around 10 sumthing, she called me again and asked how's my condition now. From her tune of voice, I know she is very worrying abt me. How i wish i'm in ipoh and i hav my beloved mum to take care of me and i do not need to think what to eat for lunch or even dinner. But...Sigh...! :( Well, i'm feeling betta today, but just hav minor headache.

Arrrgh.. I damn hate my housemates who alwiz slam the door so hard. Pls la, dun ever try to scare ppl with so hard slamming door la. Wan to break the door rite? Imagine when u're doing something carefully, out of a sudden sum1 slams the door very hard..arrgh..for sure u will jump up frm the chair rite? Yes. I've been frightened for uncounted times ady. I hate them. They're no manners fellow. I do not look at them. I hate to see their ugly betty faces. Yaks. Damn them!!!!

I'm here

Hey, finally i'm back here. It seems that i've not been updated my current stuffs often. The most obvious reason is i'm damn lazy. :) My babe even made a complaint to me why i never update my blog. HAHA. Sorry abt that. Well, reli ntg special abt these few days o weeks. Assignments done! Mid terms done! Yay! I'm free from avthing. But i noe finals is coming around the corner. Need to study hard to push up my CGPA. I do not want to remain the low one. :)

I'm stil stuck in kampar by now. As usual i will be back to ipoh or even having my nice nap now. Due to tomoro's MUET test, hav to stay here for one night. :( But it's ok, my hubby is here to be with me.

Well,reli ntg to updae abt me. Gotta stop. Bye.

Meaningful ♥

放下這八件事 你就離成功不遠了

1、放下壓力 ,累與不累，取決於自己的心態

心靈的房間，不打掃就會落滿灰塵。蒙塵的心，會變得灰色和迷茫。我們每天都要經歷很多事情，開心的，不開心的，都在心裡安家落戶。心裡的事情一多，就會變得雜亂無序，然後心也跟著亂起來。有些痛苦的情緒和不愉快的記憶，如果充斥在心裡，就會使人委靡不振。所以，掃地除塵，能夠使黯然的心變得亮堂；把事情理清楚，才能告別煩亂；把一些無謂的痛苦扔掉，快樂就有了更多更大的空間。

緊緊抓住不快樂的理由，無視快樂的理由，就是你總是覺得難受的原因了。

2、放下煩惱,快樂其實很簡單

所謂練習微笑，不是機械地挪動你的面部表情，而是努力地改變你的心態，調節你的心情。學會平靜地接受現實，學會對自己說聲順其自然，學會坦然地面對厄運，學會積極地看待人生，學會凡事都往好處想。這樣，陽光就會流進心裡來，驅走恐懼，驅走黑暗，驅走所有的陰霾。
快樂其實很簡單，不要自己不快樂就可以了

3、放下自卑,把自卑從你的字典裡刪去

不是每個人都可以成為偉人，但每個人都可以成為內心強大的人。內心的強大，能夠稀釋一切痛苦和哀愁；內心的強大，能夠有效彌補你外在的不足；內心的強大，能夠讓你無所畏懼地走在大路上，感到自己的思想，高過所有的建築和山峰！
相信自己，找準自己的位置，你同樣可以擁有一個有價值的人生。

4、放下懶惰,奮鬥改變命運

不要一味地羨慕人家的絕活與絕招，通過恆久的努力，你也完全可以擁有。因為，把一個簡單的動作練到出神入化，就是絕招；把一件平凡的小事做到爐火純青，就是絕活。
提醒自己，記住自己的提醒，上進的你，快樂的你，健康的你，善良的你，一定會有一個燦爛的人生。

5、放下消極 絕望向左，希望向右

如果你想成為一個成功的人，那麼，請為「最好的自己」加油吧，讓積極打敗消極，讓高尚打敗鄙陋，讓真誠打敗虛偽，讓寬容打敗褊狹，讓快樂打敗憂鬱，讓勤奮打敗懶惰，讓堅強打敗脆弱，讓偉大打敗猥瑣……只要你願意，你完全可以一輩子都做最好的自己。沒有誰能夠左右勝負，除了你。自己的戰爭，你就是運籌帷幄的將軍！
不是所有的夢想都能成為美好的現實，但美麗的夢想同樣可以裝點出生活的美麗。

6、放下抱怨 與其抱怨，不如努力

所有的失敗都是為成功做準備。抱怨和洩氣，只能阻礙成功向自己走來的步伐。放下抱怨，心平氣和地接受失敗，無疑是智者的姿態。
抱怨無法改變現狀，拚搏才能帶來希望。真的金子，只要自己不把自己埋沒，只要一心想著閃光，就總有閃光的那一天。
縱觀古今中外，很多人生的奇跡，都是那些最初拿了一手壞牌的人創造的。
不要總是煩惱生活。不要總以為生活辜負了你什麼，其實，你跟別人擁有的一樣多。

7、放下猶豫 立即行動，成功無限

認準了的事情，不要優柔寡斷；選准了一個方向，就只管上路，不要回頭。機遇就像閃電，只有快速果斷才能將它捕獲。
立即行動是所有成功人士共同的特質。如果你有什麼好的想法，那就立即行動吧；如果你遇到了一個好的機遇，那就立即抓住吧。立即行動，成功無限！
有些人是必須忘記的，有些事是用來反省的，有些東西是不能不清理的。該放手時就放手，你才可以騰出手來，抓住原本屬於你的快樂和幸福！
有些事情是不能等待的，一時的猶豫，留下的將是永遠的遺憾！

8、放下狹隘 心寬，天地就寬

寬容是一種美德。寬容別人，其實也是給自己的心靈讓路。只有在寬容的世界裡，人，才能奏出和諧的生命之歌！
要想沒有偏見，就要創造一個寬容的社會。要想根除偏見，就要首先根除狹隘的思想。只有遠離偏見，才有人與內心的和諧，人與人的和諧，人與社會的和諧。我們不但要自己快樂，還要把自己的快樂分享給朋友、家人甚至素不相識的陌生人。因為分享快樂本身就是一種快樂，一種更高境界的快樂。

Say Hello to November

Today is the new day of November. Say goodbye to October. It's just so fast that it comes to an end of this year. I still rmb last year's november, I was preparing to apply for my course in Utar. Wow, just a blink of eyes it comes to my 3rd semester d. Time is no longer wanted to wait us even though just a second, it wouldn't stop moving ahead, nvr tend to move slowly. Haha. We should appreciate the time given. :)

I'm still considering whether to move away from my current room. Yes, for sure my rental is expensive and the size of my room is too large for me. Sometimes I do feel afraid of staying alone in my large room. Besides, I do not like my housemate that often brings lots of his friends to our hostel. Yes, u hav the power to bring any kind of ur frens, but pls la, consider abt ppl's situation k? I reli hate noises. I hate sound polution. Ur frens are shouting and laughing so loud at the downstairs which make me and as well as my fens get frustrated. there are another 2 girls, living at the same floor with me, yaks, they tend to make the kitchen so dirty and nvr want to clean in. Come on, u're an adult, how come just a minor thing u wouldn't make it done properly? Feel shame of u both. Seems that i've so many things to complaint abt. I know living with different kind of ppl toleration is needed among each other, sigh!

Guess what. I've completed 2 out of 3 assignments. Just want to say my way of completing tasks is so efficient. Clap to myself. Haha.

Sisters came back from their Beijing trip and i got to know that it's so damn cold over there. Feel lucky that I didn't join them. My sister teased me that if i'm there, for sure i wil be hiding inside the luggage. So bad her. :)

Oh ya, my hubby's fb is being suspended. My frens, pls do add him up ya.

Gotta stop right now. Happy November av1.

Terribly Suffering

Yesterday was a horrible day for me. Why do I say so? Hmm, I did have ear problem since couple of months ago. Yes, I do not take very good care of my ears and keep making it to get injured each time. I got my bad day yesterday when i felt that I had difficulties to listen things. I couldn't describe what's inside my ear. It just like very watery and I feel heavy for my ear. T.T I'm afraid of I couldn't listen anything anymore in my life. Seriously to tell, I just could manage to listen 20% onli. Imagine that!! How scared am I. Ppl, please do take well care of ur ears. I was tearing. I was over worried. But I didn't tell my parents abt it cuz I know that once I let them know abt my condition they will probably worry abt me. TQ hubby for being with me yesterday. He hugged me to giv me the very bestest and warmth comfort to me. Yes, I feel his love. ♥ I was suffering whether or not to consult doctor at the midnight as I know the charges will be expensive than in normal working hours. Hubby suggested to go by today if I do not feel good again. But today, I just feel a little bit better and the feeling of heaviness of my ear is still there. Pray hard that I can get very well soon.

My fren received a call from office saying that he should hav dropped one sub due to his under probation. Omg. I'm definitely be alone to attend classes. It's okay. Somehow I feel that attending classes alone will be betta. Yes, perhaps it would be boring, but u can pay so much concentration to the class. I comfort myself in this way. I can't change the fact. Just wish both of my frens work harder. We hav to graduate 2geta. :))

3 assignments. But I haven started to touch a single yet. Quite lazy and I'm still in holiday mood. Please bring me back to the reality lahh.

New Semester

I was bak in Kampar last Wednesday due to the MUET exam on Thursday. I know i didn't do well for the speaking test as i was reli too nervous to speak out my points with the 2 minutes time given to prepare for my points. Aiks. Yes, I prepared well and even arranged all my senteces well but when it was my turn to speak, i spoke all my three points within 30 seconds. T.T I stopped there for a moment. My mind kept thinking for other points to elaborate my main points plus I was too nervous, at the end, didn't manage to complete my sentence in a well manner. Both examiners realised my tension and tried to help me out. They asked me for example but i noe i was failed to giv very accurate example. That's my weakness to speak in front of the people. I'm too shy perhaps. YES!! Can't deny that.

When it came to Friday, Yes, our malacca trip started. Special thanks to Kareena to be our tour guide and she allowed us to stay over 2 nights at her giant house. Her house is very nice decorated especially for the kitchen, it's big enuf. She brought us to wander around Malacca and we managed to try out Malacca's nice foods. We spent so much on eating rather than buying stuffs. I'm in poor condition again. We took over 1k pics there and soon will be uploaded. Overall, this trip is fun and enjoyable, espcially the time i'm be with Hubby ♥ and another 3 frens. As i'm not so close with girl ( our tour guide), but during this trip, I tend to build friend relationship with her. Haha. She knows what I like to eat just in the short period of time. =)

Yeah, bak to the topic. New semester is started and i'm so lucky to get my sticker for the 1st time. I'm sad that one of my buddy couldn't join us. Sigh! Not a happy semester but I will try hard for this semester. My results for last semester is damn bad. So, work harder. :)

Touched

I'm so touched. Guess what. Hubby purposely brought me out for supper yest night when i told him i wished to eat WanTan Mee. Immediately he asked me to get prepared and will bring me out. I thought he was just joking with me and i started to get impatient to ask him stop fooling around with me. Haha. After a while, I realised that he was not joking but in serious tone. Hubby, thanks so much. ♥ And I don't reli feel good cuz each time yr family pays for it. :( Pls allow me to pay once,ok?

Surprisingly, yest received a sms from Station one. It states that i hav won the prizes that it offers free Yestea and Chicken Ball. Yes, last month me and hubby did fill in the form to join for the lucky draw. Wow, i'm so lucky to be choosen as winner. Woo Hoo~

Flipping over the newspaper these few days and seeing the horrible accident happened to those victims. I feel so sorry and pity for all of them and their family members as well. T.T Sigh! From my point of view, it's betta to take KTM or even ETS is more safer than taking bus. Hopefully all those bus drivers can follow the rules and regulations stated so as not to destroy ppl's life.

Well, tomoro will be going bak to kampar to sit for MUET test. I'm so nervous and scared now. But still hav to face it. Be steady.Holidays left few days and new sem gonna start very soon. No. I don't want to step bak to uni life. T.T I want more holidays. :(

Still Sick

I'm stil sick. Fever loves me loads. Having the heavy head all day long is very terribly suffering. I got well yest but 2day it seems that viruses come to visit me again. I feel so cold and my throat nvr wants to get well. It causes me so pain whenever i swallow my foods. It's more terrible than having ulcer in my throat there. I hope to get well soon cuz i noe once i get sick my weight will definitely drop. I'm skinny like skeleton like ppl used to say it to me. I don't mind as i noe i'm hard to grow fats except for my tummy. I hav big tummy. Haha. Mum urges to me to see doc again tomoro but i guess i wouldn't go for it. I rather rest at home.

I wonder why since when my body turns to be easily get affected by viruses? As i noe, i'm strong enuf to battle against all those sickness. It's okay, i'm sure i wil get well very soon as i received many wishes from frens around me. They care abt me that make me feel touched even just a simple wishing. Thanks ppl. ♥

My hubby is coughing very terrible as well. Both of us are sickers now. He's worrying very much abt me until he tends to call me more often in order to catch up with me of my recent condition. Yes, i make him worry so much cuz i didn't get well till now. It has been the 3rd day i'm falling sick. I hate sick. I hate eating medicine as no one likes to. I hate i hav a heavy head when i get up from my sleep. Oh god, please let me recover asap. I don't wish my sickness takes over most of my holidays.

Gotta stop right here and sleep early. Hopefully me and my hubby will get very well soon. :)

Sick

Sick again. Sickness comes to find me again. The feeling of having fever and sore throat is very suffering. I do not hav the mood to do anything that i wanted to do, even i do not hav the appetite to eat as well. Yup, this is sick. I lie on the bed for the whole day with my quilt, headache seems nvr want to go off frm me. :( Finally i went to see doc and for sure tablets of medicine will be given to me again. This year i hav been sick for the 2nd time. Ppl, pls do take care or ur health, Do not ever let virus to keep attacking u. Piece of advise is, drink more water and regular exercise are needed.

One week holidays has passed. It comes to the 2nd week, means that it's the last week to enjoy my holidays. I don't care. I will throw every pro, sadness, unhappy thingy far away. I want to maintain my happy mood each day and for sure i want back my healthy body. But frankly to say, i've nothing to do at home except on9, otherwise, any suggestion ppl??

I promised myself i hav to update my blog more often but i seem to be more lazy than ever. Perhaps nothing special to share. :) And seriously i'm in broke condition again. I spent too much in buying makeup stuffs yet i stil couldn't keep track of the way how to make up. Hehe. I'm sure one day i will noe it pretty well. Jia you to myself.

Gotta stop right here. Update more soon. Happy weekend av1. ♥

Wonderful Sunday

What a wonderful Sunday. We had a nice, joyful and satisfied lunch at restaurant. Sisters paid for the bills just now so as to celebrate my dad's birthday. Today is the most expensive meals ever than usual. Haha. I wonder do my sisters feel heartache when they see the bills. Surprisingly my hubby did join us as well. Here's the pic I take wif him ♥

Lol. Nice or not? Overall, the cake is not nice cuz i dislike the taste of cheese. I'm freaking dislike cheese at all.

But now, they all are heading bak to KL. No more noise, no more laughters, no more chatting. They will be going for a vacation very very soon too. Sobs. I can't join them as my new sem starts at the time they go. T.T

New design

Do u guys realise that my blog has changed? HaHa. Hubby helps me to make changes in my blog. Guess what. I'm totally an obtuser in all these computer skills to manage these things. I don't know at all. But I know i hav to learn all by myself in order not to rely on ppl next time. I keep asking my fren, Ebel, she's the one who helps me lots wif my blog. Thanks. She's very nice indeed. :)

Woo Hoo~ All sisters hav reached home safely. Later on we will be going to shop shop and SHOP!! Secret Recipe is waiting us. Coffee Bean is waiting me as well. Happy to see all my sisters are coming bak. We're one big family. Hoho. Tomoro will be celebrating my beloved dad's birthday. I'm inviting my hubby to join us as well. He's too shy to meet my family members. Same to me as well, til now i'm stil so so so shy to hav dinner with his family. Tat's why i can und his feelings. I don't force him to join as i wan to giv him some time to get used with tis situation. Hubby, don't worry, someday later u will find out that mixing up with my family is very happy too. ♥

Gotta sotp right here. Hav a nice weekend av1. :)

END

It comes to an end. It's the end of Sept. Time flies. Time does pass very fast. Hubby 4 months training life is going to end soon. Nope. Tomoro is his last day of working. Yes. I feel great that he gains experience frm his working. I guess after he graduates, he wil be able to find a betta job. He has two weeks to enjoy for his holidays with me. Woo Hoo. Finally it does come to me. I'm longing this for so long.

2day is my 2nd day of my holidays. It's stil the same. I just stay at home and face my lappie all day long.. What shud i do? I reali couldn't list it out, not even one. Sigh! But i don't wish to step bak to uni life 1st, wish to hav more longer holidays, I wan to relax myself after the hectic and stress exams. But at the same time, i'm worrying my reuslts that would reali "hurt" me. I'm worrying that i couldn't accept the truth. Yes, i'm not doing it very well. I regret. Nothing can change the fact. Pray hard for myself.

First Impression

What do u feel once u meet me for the 1st time? Cool? Nice? Sociallable? Sweet? Haha. Majority of my frens tell me that the 1st impression on their mind is I'm very cool. They think that I'm those kind of ppl that don't like to mix wif others and like to be alone. How come? Do I reali look like that? Actually not. I love making new frens. I'm easily mixed up wif ppl. But, the main point is here, I'm quite shy to take the 1st step to make new frens. I don't dare to start up a conversation wif ppl that i don't reali noe. Yes, tat's me. I'm timid, i'm shy. Perhaps u guys can say that i'm afraid of being rejected by ppl. It's so "fish" rite? HAHA.

Just got to noe, one of my college fren told me that when the 1st day he saw me in college, tat time i had red coloured-hair. He thought that i'm "la la mui". Argh! How bad is it when he told me this few days ago. No. I'm not actuali. See what, when u step outside, majority of the ppl has blonde or brown coloured-hair. For me, it's not nice. I onli like red, purple or those sharp coloured-hair. Different ppl has defferent taste. So pls dun criticize me ya. But i did colour my hair in brown or blonde b4 for sure. Nothing special. And, when I was in NS, that time if I'm nt mistaken, I highlighted my hair into red colour again. Again, ppl tend to cal me "红头妹''. Argh! Acuali I dislike ppl to call me in this way. Cuz of this, I was quite famous when I was in NS. Haha. I received many "love letter" frm different kinds of guys. I just felt weird and shocked why they didnt pass the letter to me face to face and instead of asking the 3rd party to pass to me. Weird rite? Somehow I miss my NS life now. How are you all my NS frens?

Recently i'm planning to dye my hair again. Hubby is seriously opposing this once I told him this. He dislikes me to hav coloured-hair. But, hehe, he can't stop me frm doing this cuz i don't reali like dark coloured-hair. HAHA. Do forgive me. :)

Bak to the topic, don't hesitate to mix up with me. I'm not hard to communicate with. I can chat whatever topics wif you once u start the conversation. Sign of Gemini ----> Love talking loads. :)

Well, i'm stil very enjoying my holidays though he's nt be wif me. But I blif once he is bak to me, my life wil b more colourful. I just hav to wait. Woo Hoo~~~ I will be going to watch lots of movies with him, I wish to shop til broke. Haha. Lots of activities wish to do them with him. ♥

Exam Finished and Holidays Start

Finally. Finally my finals ended by 2day. It lasted for 3 weeks. Means that it does torture me within these 3 weeks. Overall, for all the papers that I had done, I seriously feel that I was not doing it very very well, especially for the BPM. The paper did make me stun when I flipped over the exam paper. Til now I'm stil worrying abt it. For 2day's paper, I guess I might not do it well too cuz as I mentioned b4, I do hav poor time management. I seriously do not hav enuf time to complete just for 3 questions. If I'm given 4 hours, I think i should be done it very well. HAHA. Well, since all is over. I shall just put avthing down and start enjoying my holidays to the max. I'm longing for this day to come. It comes finally. Feel happy and relieved once I handed up my booklet to the examiner. *Grin*

What shall I do during my holidays? I guess PPS is my best companion. Ha. Hubby is going to come bak to me very soon. His internship finishes very very soon. I can meet him very very soon. Finally we can stay bak as last time. Woo Hoo~ Double and Double happiness.

Recalling bak the 1st week without hubby, it was reali torturing me. I was not used to it the days without him. But slowly, I noe I hav to get used of it as my fren tells me, a couple doesnt nid to meet avday. Becuz a couple meets avday, for sure he/she wouldnt miss you.

At this moment, I'm enjoying myself very much with no worries, no pressure, no more sleepless night, no more to hav coffee to be my companion. But one thing, my bestest fren comes to stick wif me again ---> ULCER. I hav 3 ulcers which definitely cause me so much suffer. I hate YOU.

Gotta stop here. Will update more soon :) Hav a nice day av1.

1st paper

Yest had my 1st paper ---> Human Resource Management. I know that I'm not doing it very well. Same problem, I didn't manage my time well. At the end, I was quite rush to finish my last question with a simply-written answer. I don't wonder why since diploma till now, I do hav poor time management. Feel so helpless whenever i know that time is gonna end soon yet I stil hav questions to be answered. In that moment, definitely feel so much pressure, heart pumping non-stop, etc. Haha. Well, it was over. Don't think abt that anymore or else it makes u to feel down mood. Just let it be. =)

The next paper I will be having is Japanese paper which is the most terrify paper for me. Hopefully i can reali battle and conquer over it. YES! I can. I sure can. Another terrify paper is Operations Management which consists of calculation part. Damn. I'm afraid of calculation, I'm afraid of figures. I'm damn scared now. What to do? I still hav to work very very hard on it. Jia you to myself as well as to my frens.

To hubby ♥ I feel happy once i got to meet you last few days. It's more than enuf than avthing I want. Thnaks for being with me. I reali feel so sorry that the way i talked to you. I was too emotional but u nvr get angry of me yet make me to feel happy. SORRY! What I promised myself seems couldn't reach it. But trying my best is most important. Trustworthy, tolerate, love, care, respect are very much needed among all the couple. Yr partner understands yr feelings, he/she knows what u're thinking. Do not try to hide sumthing behind him/her. She/He is yr love one, he/she will be alwiz there to listen all of yr problems and happy things. Live more happily is the most important issue that yr partner wants. =)

Friends are important too as I mentioned last few posts. Friends are alwiz helping you along when u're down in problems. When u're sad, they lend out their shoulder for u to lie on, get full ready to listen all yr problems. For those who hav bf/gf, please do not forget abt yr frens. They are important as well. Do not alwiz think that yr frens are the lightbulb when u're wif yr gf/bf. This kind of thinking way is bad and soon yr frens wouldn't like to mix up with you.

Stop right here. Gonna stick wif my lovely Japanese books. Best of luck av1. =)

Exam

Exam will officially start tomoro. Somehow I'm feeling tension now and afraid that i can't do it very well. Well, as the saying goes, 99% depends on yr hardwork, onli 1% depends on yr luck. Hopefully i own the 1% luck and by my side alwiz. I will ensure that i do my very best tomoro.

So fast it comes to sunday, means that holidays are gone. Sisters are bak to kl. Hubby has to leave me again. The feeling of leaving is definitely very sad though i noe that i wil gonna meet him very very soon. I guess frm now onwards i hav to put more effort for my revision rather than keep thinking of other stuffs. Be happy alwiz is most important.

Haha. Finally I noe how to use Google Chrome. It's more than betta to use Mozila Firefox now. I luv google chrome so much now. But there's some things for me to learn in advance in order to noe more abt it. I'm stil the new user, not reali noe how to use yet i say i fall in luv into it. Nonsense rite?? Haha :P

Wishing av1 who will be going to sit for finals tomoro. Best of luck ya. ♥

S.T.R.E.S.S.

Exam is cuming nearer and nearer. It just left for few days onli. For sure everyone of us who is going to sit for finals soon wil feel the pressure and stress. Sleepless nights, insomnia, taking coffee more than water, and etc. These are the effect of finals. Duhh. Hopefully to end it asap and I cant wait for my holidays.

Wee^^ Sisters all cuming bak to ipoh. Nice gathering 2gether.

Just take some time to update my blog. Gonna sleep soon. Gud luck av1 and best of luck ♥

Dentist

Today went to meet dentist as I had tooth problem. Yes, the most terrible things in my life is to meet dentist. Heart nvr stop pumping once I noe i hav to meet him in order to hav my tooth "maintenance". HAHA. Once the nurse called my name and that moment i was so not willing to step inside the room and the room looks so terribly horrible. No one will und how much fear I was suffering at that moment. Actually I didnt feel any pain yet i hold my handbag so tight and both of my legs were shivering. My mum teased me. So shame! =.='' Overall, it onli took me awhile to fix it. Thanks. My tooth is safe now. (=

Love and friendship? Which one is more important to u? Love? Friendship? Actually, both must be weighted in the same balance way. Yes, lover loves you and cares abt you. But friends do that to you if u truly meet a nice friend around you. Do not find friends just indeed u nid them. After getting help frm them and just throw yr friends away. This kind of attitude is not likely accepted and sooner or later friends around u will start leaving you. At the end, u will be all alone to face the world. So, friends are important and leave a little place to let them stay inside yr life. Appreciate them alwiz.

Poor Utar System!!

Woke up early in the morning juz to register for the subs for next semester. I managed to register mine one but used up 3 hours. I failed to help my frens to register as the classes are full. I dont wonder why, since ppl are complaining Utar has poor system and why not Utar upgrades its systems so as to provide the best service to the students? As we're paying so much but we're not fully utilized it. I noticed many ppl r releasing their angers on FB, keep scolding and damaging Utar's reputation. Yes, I und their feelings cuz i'm one of the victim too. Since when Utar has changed this system and wanted us to register the subs for ourselves. Why not it settles avthing for us? Somehow I feel that Ktar is very much betta than Utar. Sighsssssssssssssssssss. Totally feel disappointed upon you.

Didnt sleep well last night as I was quite nervous for the registration. I could estimate this incident will happen on me. Timetable clashed. Nid to rearrange all of my timetable again. Feel so tension abt all these. STOP! I nid a break rather than keep refreshing the page and waiting it to load. It makes me to feel tired of waiting. Stop avthing and wil take a rest soon. Poor Utar.

No Motivation

Argh. I hav no motivation to study at all. Finals is cuming nearer and nearer to me. I know i hav to fight wif it wif my max effort yet I feel that i hav thousands of lazy worms deep inside my body. Yes, "they" successfully conquer over me. Oh No! I shouldnt be liketat. Hubby keeps urging me to study bt nt watching drama now. Yup, I'm worrying. But how to stay focus? Any idea ppl? I need motivation desperately. But no one can help you except me myself. YES! I'm sure I can do it

Finally I hav made my decision to take MAICSA papers after my degree course. It helps me alot in my future wif tis certificate. Yes, I hav to study more harder in order to pass that professional papers. I do not hope to disappoint myself as well as my parents. All the best to myself.

Nothing is impossible to be settled. It depends what ways u do it. How much effort u put, at the end u wil gain wat u wan. Trust urself. Confidence is very much needed.

Recently, same thing, I'm getting thinner again til i hav 22 inches waist onli. OMG! Its the 1st time i hav in my life. Mum and sisters keep saying that I look more skinny than last time. Haha. Actually I do not realise that I'm getting thinner and thinner. Hubby feels disappointed and gives up in scolding me to gain fats. Sorry, I will try very very hard to be normal weight okay? I promise you.

September

1st day of September. A new month means a new beginning for av1. Everything looks gud if u feel gud. (=
Well, nothing special abt 2day as I just stay at home to do my revision. 2 more weeks I will b sitting for my finals. I feel damn nervous now and I'm afraid i cant do it well cuz til now I'm in low progression. Seriously need high motivation.

GONE

Aiks. Time passes so fast. Sisters just left Ipoh. When can I get to meet them again? Sigh. My Beijing trip has cancelled cuz it falls on end of Oct, and it's the 1st week of my new semester, so i couldnt join them. But i didnt feel sad once i noe that i couldnt go cuz the place i long to go is Hong Kong. Perhaps next year i will be going?? Hopefully. (= Seems that avthing is gone. Gone!

To my dearest Hubby: I know u're in down mood recently. And what can I do i just to by yr side and listen to all yr grumbles. I couldnt help. I'm helpless. Somehow I feel that im useless. But whenever i face problems, u're the problem solver of mine. ♥ I know too many problems are rushing towards you n you hav limited time and financial to help solving these continuous problems. But, I believe, nothing couldnt be solved. I'm sure you can do it. I'm here to giv my fully support to u. Hubby, u're the most important in my life but not av1. If im asked what is yr rank in my heart and I can definitely tel u that u're No. 1. No reasons to explain.

Hopefully things can be settled ASAP and you wil live more happily than ever. Take care over there.

Poor Utar

What happen to my utar portal? I cant even print out my exam slip. I call for the FBF and asked abt it. The staff told me wil giv me a cal bak after that. But til now i even nvr receive any cal frm them. This can prove that they hav poor service. No wonder b4 i start stepping into utar, I heard lots of ppl complaining abt utar. Now, i can reali und their feelings as im one of the victims. Sigh. Sad and disappointed towards UTAR. Cant they just improve a bit in everything??

Just now had a nice high tea session wif my sis. Secret recipe ♥ . Ordered my favourite Chocolate Banana and Ice Blended Mocha Expresso. NICE. Fully satisfied.

I noe im getting skinny and and skinny nowadays til i get scolded by parents again. Actually i noe wats the reason. I started to dislike eating meat foods which included chicken,pork etc. I onli luv tom yam, laksa and other snacks. Mayb im eating unhealthy these few weeks thats why my weight keeps dropping like a slope. As i noe my current weight is 42.7kg. Too light?? Haha. I guess its fit to my body size la. Hehe.

Shoulder is HURT

My siblings and I went to Lost World on Sat. Out of the blue moon we decided to go thr. Rmb vividly, on that day, the sun was shinning too mercilessly on us and we spent almost 5 hours there. My skin is totally burnt. the heat burns my skin. My both sides shoulder are hurt and til injured oredi. Its so damn pain. No more playing under the hot sun and say NO to Lost World cuz there hav few games to play. No fun at all. For me, i prefer Sunway Lagoon. Hubby asks me whether i wan to go with him. Haha. I shall consider that after my finals. Wee^^

These few days I do not hav mood to study. I'm juz busy fooling around wif my sisters. Guess what. We do hav lots of activities to enjoy. Haha. Hubby is not happy due to sum matter happes on him. How i wish i could help him along but. Sigh! I know i couldnt help except staying by his side and listen to his problems. He never knows that i feel heartache whenever he tells me abt his problems yet i couldnt help him along. I feel im useless. T.T

Well, hopefully avthing goes well to him and my skin gets well soon. (=

Undescribable Feelings

Wat feelings am i having now? I myself do not noe very well. Mixed feelings perhaps. Happy+sad+moody= ??? Couldnt hav the right answer rite? Yes,its the feeling im having now. Tomoro hubby's family will be going to KL to meet him. How i wish i could join them and hav fun. And for sure most importantly i can meet HIM. Sigh! Notes onli can be my companion these few weeks. I dun wan. T.T Seriously im having hard feeling. I couldnt explain why i wil hav this. Sum1 knows that? Can tell me? Its so suffering. =(

I told Hubby. I guess he knows my feelings. Onli he wil be able to understand me very well. Every single action or word is done or spoken by me,ke knows. Haha. Hopefully i can meet you very very soon. Hope that tomoro u wil b enjoying the moments wif yr lovely family. =)

Bellyache!!!

Arrrrg. In the early morning i had a bad pain. Its bellyache. It makes me couldnt sleep well and stays awake most of the time. Finally i couldnt bear of the pain and wake up. Went to toilet twice and now im feeling betta. Seriously, i reali cant bear the pain of bellyache. It reali makes me very very suffer and sure cold sweats wil start dropping down. I guess i had eaten wrongly yest night.

It's friday. I tot today is a public holiday as my dad is not going for work. But my sis does go for work too. Wee^^ my third sis and her bf are on their way cuming bak. Woohoo^^ Im afraid i do not hav the mood to study. How?? My sis wil juz keep watching drama in front of me and it gets away of my attention frm studying.

Recently I'm not having good mood due to some matters happen around me. The bad feeling keeps staying inside my heart. Feel heartache. I guess im thinking too much. Well, for sure i wish to stay away frm these thgs. I keep reminding myself not to think so much, its betta i focus on my studies. Ntg is more important than studying now.
HAHA. I stil feel sleepy now. (=

Anyway,stay happy av1, and same do i. Show a smiling face to av1 around you. You make ppl happy and for sure you urself wil feel the happiness.

Finally

Finally. Yes, finally i hav reached Ipoh. My lovely place to stay at. 3 days at kampar is definitely boring to the max. Imagine that u hav no place to go, no entertainment at all. All the while u hav the onli choice, is just staying inside yr room, facing yr lappie. Other than that, ntg else can be done over thr. Feel great once i reached Ipoh. *GRIN*

This week my sisters are cuming bak. For sure my house will full of joys and laughters. And we plan to go Lost World to hav fun. Hopefully we can make it cuz i hope i can release all my stress over thr. Keep studying these few days make myself turn mad n get bored of reading those notes.

Well, i didnt sleep well yest nite. I managed to fall asleep at 6am. But due to hot weather and sum matters that bother my sleeping mode, i cant sleep well. Most of the time i stayed awake.

Dear, sorry for making u sad again and again. Im reali sorry. I noe u're disappointed upon me. Well, ntg much to say except SORRY. Hope u do 4giv all my mistakes. Miss u and Luv u to the MAX. ♥

Gotta hav a rest. Tonite wil b fighting hard again. >.<

Disappointed!!

Today is the 3rd day i stay at kampar without attending any classes. I guess next week I wouldnt cum bak kampar. I wil just stay at home to study on my own. My self- set study week. Guess what, I hav got 2 weeks study weeks. It's enuf for me. I hav set a goal for this sem. Its a MUST for me to achieve. Bit by bit, im sure i can overcome it. Support myself to the MAX. haha..

Yest received a bad news frm him which can definitely push me deep inside a clough. He promised me he wil come bak by tis week. Sigh, he told me his family wil b going to KL to meet him. Means that he cant cum bak. Im sad and very much disappointed. I'm reali unhappy. I wan to be all alone. Tat's my pattern. I switched off both of my hp, i dun wish to receive any msg or cal frm him. I just wish to be all alone. A lonely night. But i think he wouldnt feel gud that he cant manage to catch up wif me. Sorry, i dun hav the mood to talk to any1, i juz wan to lock myself in the room. T.T Til now im not feeling gud as well. I hope to be bak to my home but tomoro i hav to attend lecture class. So no choice, hav to stay one more day here. After tat, say gudbye to kampar for 2 weeks.Hee^^

Seriously in low progression of my studies. Cant reali focus too much. I guess sum1 can throw away my laptop, mayb it makes me focus more than that. Haha..i sleep more than studying frankly to say. Start yawning whenever i take my notes or start memorizing. Haha..sounds so lazy. Yup,im definitely damn lazy. Lazy worm is me..ME!!

Anyway,jia you for all Utarians. All the best and best of luck.

I'm Boring

I'm so boring now. Didnt go for classes these 2 days. But why am i here? Why i'm not in ipoh? Actually its a waste of my time to stay here for few days though i reali can focus on my studies. Tomoro will be attending class or else i will definitely feel that I'm useless to be here. I do not hav the mood to study yet. Notes put aside, facing my laptop the whole day. The onli moment that i can focus is at night. But what shall I do in this whole afternoon? Gosh, I'm damn boring here. Please save me out here.

Recently i'm learning makeup. Planning to start buying makeup stuffs. Hee^^ its a new start for me maybe. Actuali its quite hard to learn frm zero cuz i hav to seek sum experts to teach me. Well, i nid time to learn abt it.

Sumtimes if u think things into positive, it does make you feel gud rather than keep thinking into negative. I keep reminding myself not to be negative-minded, cuz the one who feel the pain n hurt is definitely the me. So, THINK POSITIVE CAN CURE EVERYTHING. (= Jia you lo me. Yest night had sum little argument wif him but at the end he managed to make me happy again. My fault again? I don't think so. Sigh. It's over. Dont wish to think abt it anymore.

Stay happy at each moment is very important. It's a simple job. Cheer up avday and you wil look nice. :D

I do not feel good :(

I had a bad feeling since yest nite. Thinking of something that makes me couldnt fall into sleep. That's so-called INSOMNIA. Today morning received a msg frm fren that he didnt want to go for classes 2day. Wee^^ So all of us for sure not going at all too. Mayb this week is our self-set Study Week.

I do not feel good. Many negative thoughts hav rushed towards my mind and it makes me into down mood. Yes, you know that. But i choose to keep quiet, not telling in details to you cuz I noe that once i tel you, argument arises. I'm juz trying to avoid it. Yup, perhaps it seems that im hiding my feelings from you, but sumtimes its nt necessary that i tel every single of my feeling. But til now, you couldnt read my mind, you do not know what i want from you actually and it does make me feel disappointed again and again. Feeling so down but you're not the one I wish to talk to. I nid frens to be my listener. T.T

Sigh. Just let it be. I don not want my day fills with sadness. Well, I'm trying to make myself look betta rather than showing sad face to my frens. Hehe.. All the best to myself. Gotta study now.

Sunday

Sunday again. Somehow i feel boring. Maybe my siblings didnt come bak this week, so for sure is lack of joys and laughter. Hmm..nothing special abt 2day, as usual today is family day and went to take lunch with relatives. It's gonna rain heavily, so it might be a gud weaher for me to take my nap.

Yest hubby made me not happy. Yes, he knew that i was not happy that moment. Guess what he did? He sang me songs juz indeed to make me happy, cheer me up. I burst into laughter and asked me whether nice anot!! (= He's just so cute cant deny that. Love the way he makes me happy, sometimes with his jokes, with his actions is totally melted my heart. Thanks yea.

Next week hubby will be cuming bak but i guess i wouldnt hav time to meet him as he wil b going to sumwhere else with his family members. Hopefully can meet u even just 5mins time. It's more than enuf. =(

3 more weeks wil sit for finals. Gudbye nice movie. I will see you again after my finals. HAHA. Gambate to myself and av1 too. (=

Feel bored at home =(

Arrrrgh.. I'm damn bored staying at home. Who can save me out from here? I wish to go shopping but i promised myself not to buy anything within this half year cuz i did spend alot n alot when i was in KL last week. I wil warn myself from buying things again. Hopefully it works.

What can i do now besides holding my notes? What can i do to occupy my time? PPS pehaps? Duhh..i stil feel boring. I do not hav the mood to study to the best yet. Somebody can cheer me up. Yes, the onli one is HIM. But he's not by my side at this moment. He's enjoying his shopping time wif his pals. SIGH!! How i wish im in KL to be with him. CPY, face the facts. It's impossible. T.T Nothing i can do except waiting for his calls. =(

So fast it comes to the end of August. And soon it will come to the end of the year. I wonder why this year passes so fast and it seems juz a blink of eyes. Yes, treasure the time and cherish the things you hav. Do not feel regret after making decision to do certain things. Think carefully before stepping out. Think carefully before speaking out or taking actions. (=

Stay happy and you will find out that yr life will full of joys and happiness. ♥

AGAIN

Again and again. It seems happen non-stop on me. Nightmare again and it couldnt stop apprearing terrible scenes in my dreams. What reali happen on me? Too much stress til i got nightmare? This seems impossible. >.< Hopefully i can reali hav a nice sleep tonite.

Somehow i feel lonely. I do not like the feeling of loneliness. But i cant do anything accept trying to find things to pass my time. Reading, watching,blogging and etc. I'm waiting him to bak from office n receiving his calls. One more month, he will flee away from working life and bak to me. We can stick 2geta owaz,meet avday and so on. I shall just wait. Hee^^

I noticed girls with earrings somewhat look very gud and nice. But i do not hav even one cuz i sked of the pain. I tried once when i was in Form3. I couldnt bear the pain and decided not to wear any earrings anymore. But as im growing older, i realise that girls shud hav wore earrings in order to look more nicer. I do plan to go piercing but I'm scared. Sigh! When i wil hav the courage to do one? Perhaps few years more. HAHA

Something enlightens me. Well, different ppl has different perceptions,views or ideas. If you feel that ppl's perception is strongly oppsing what you hav thought, kindly not to get angry or reject ppl, try to accept it though u're not agreeing with him/her. Av1 does hav the power or authority to speak or do whatever they wan. So, if u seriously couldnt accept, just leave without any anger or hate. Besides, av1 has his or her own style. Yup,sometimes we do copy ppl when they are looking gud or nice. But please bear in mind, don't copy 100% cuz u wil rather feel that u're living in ppl's shadow. Why not make up yr own style and live in yr own world? I guess u wil feel more comfortable rather than keep follwing ppl rite? Agree? Haha.. sometimes i do copy ppl's style like how they dress up,how they make up a stylish hairstyle and etc. I will just be myself owaz n try to be the perfect one. I guess av1 of us can do that rite? Jia you!

I wish i could improve my English more in order to write more complete sentences. As im doing my degree now, but somehow i feel that i onli manage to write simple english. Duhh.. how could it be?? No doubt i wil stay at tis spot. I shud hav moved forward to improve my english to the deeper level. Gambate to myself. I know i can do it very well. Seriously, i can write but i couldnt speak fluently. when I'm asked to answer questions, for sure i will speak hesitatingly and nid time to think how to complete the sentences. =(

Stop right here. Hav a nice day everyone and stay happy owaz. (=

37th Months Anniversary

Yes. Today 20//2010,which means i've walked through 37months together with you. Well, we dont celebrate this special day as u're nt around in ipoh. I send u an appreciated msg as if it represents all my loves towards YOU ♥ . Well, received yr call and you ended the conversation like tis : " Bye soh poh". How touched and sweet when i heard that. Haha.. Hubby, it's stil the same,nothing much i can say to u. Just a simple three words for u
I LOVE YOU (= I ♥ YOU loads

Hopefully both of us can walk thru the unlimited days,months and even years together wif you. We will stay more happily than ever and hold our hands tight to walk to a brighter future. Muackz

I'm tired

I'm mentally exhausted. I dont wonder why and hav no ideas why i will be like this? Is it the effect of the dream when i took my nap in the afternoon?? My dream appears many characters, couldnt rmb who they are,n they juz make me difficult to run out from danger life. I try to get out frm the dream, ya, my mental is awaken but i couldnt get to wake up.It's so scary indeed and luckily i managed to wake up from the horrible scene. I felt headache after the nap. =(

Recently im addicted in reading articles posted in FB. Those articles are reli meaningful and it teaches me alot and i get to know more truth abt human being. Yes,i do learn alot from the articles. Ppl,please share more articles,i do like to read. Thanks.

Hubby keeps nagging me like an old woman. He dislikes the way i skip my meals and nowadays he keeps checking me whether i hav taken my dinner. He got very angry when i told him that i juz bought burger as my dinner. He closed my calls n even showed me his temper. Hubby,i know that im getting thinner and thinner. But, you hav to noe that im officially broke. Imagine that yr purse left onli RM60 and stil nid to survive for 2 weeks?? Duhh.. You ask me to eat more in order to reach the weight of 46kg. Yes,frankly to tell, im trying hard to gain weight. You sigh when you see my body size is just like skeleton. You even scolded me if i dont eat well, you will dump me away. Haha, i noe tat u're trying to frighten me. Well, i wil try to gain fats. This is the promise i make for you.

Finals is at the edge of corner. I'm not well prepared for it. And i noe that im stil in holiday mood. What happen to me? I shall set a target for myself and work harder to strive for it. Is that possible for me? I will just try. Hubby gives me lots of supports and sometimes i do make some grumbles to him that i face some pressures and wish he's beside me. He tries to make me happy with his jokes. Yes, he's a big joker that onli can cheer up my day. Thanks alot my hubby. Without you owaz to be my side, i couldnt imagine that how my life wil get into unimaginable situation. ♥

woo hoo.. Gotta start studying now. Add oil to all my frens that are going to sit for finals. (=

Simple Day

i was late 2day due to my wrong-set-alarm
quite rush for it as my fren was waiting down thr
my both legs' muscle cause me difficulty to walk properly
i guess im doing too much walking when i was in KL
=(

somehow,im missing my days in KL
n i noe tat tis is the last chance 2 go as finals is around the corner
i shall put more effort in it rather than keep thinking of shopping,hav fun o watever
seems like i wil nvr serious in my studies b4
NO,it shouldnt happen to me
future is more important than avthing
n my parents are putting so much hope on me
no more making them to feel disappointed on me
i promise =)
sumtimes i do curious why ppl can get so many As in their studies bt nt me?
how they do it?
holding their books avday,av min, av seconds???
perhaps..they just cant live without books i guess..
HAHA
i shall learn frm them (:

im broke now cuz i hav spent too much in KL
my fren feels shocked when i took out my receipt n showed him how many things i bought in KL
he calculated for me
the figure is around RM800++
haiz..i hav to save money frm now onwards
no more spending extravagantly anymore

hubby tells me tat he wil help me formatting my old laptop
woohoo..u're juz too gud..
juz for me ya ♥
every fren of mine tells me that both of us do look alike
perhaps its so-called 夫妻相~
haha..i duno..
*yr hugs make me warmth*
*yr words make me sweet*
*yr care makes me lighten up my days*
*yr appearance has walked into my life n lead me to a more brighter life*
THANK YOU
thanks so much ♥

Bak To Kampar

The feeling of leaving is nt gud 2 me..
and i juz can say tat time reali passes so fast...
it seems like juz a blink n it comes to sunday adi :(
felt sad once i stepped into the train
i nvr wan to leave him BUT...T.T
he was so worrying n kept asking my fren to take care of me

well,my 4 days n 3 nights in KL was memorable to me
n the most happy moments for sure is wif my hubby ♥
he brought me wherever i wish to go
n we did spend alot in KL
guess wat..both of us almost spent RM800 in just 2 days
hubby bought alot than me..
n i juz managed to buy 2 clothes,1 short pant n bag :)

special for hubby ♥
im happy to be wif u all these days :)
thanks 4 taking care of me when i was nt feeling well due to period pain :)
thanks for bringing me to go wherever i wanted to go for so long
thanks for spending yr time to be wif me,shopping around n yet u didnt make any grumbles to me :)
sorry tat u couldnt take yr car for maintanence due to my coming
im quite worrying abt yr safety seriously..
u wil b bak 2 weeks later but i guess i wouldnt meet u..
sad~~~~

reached kampar quite late n i felt bad..
cuz my parents,my beloved hubby n sis were worrying abt my safety
they even stayed up til late night juz to wait for my calls
they wan to make sure tat i reached home safely
especially my mum ♥
she couldnt get into sleep cuz she has been waiting for my calls
sorry mum tat i hav made u worry me again :(

seriously nt in study mood
but i noe i hav to turn my study mood on
CPY..wake up plz..
no more staying bak at holiday mood

gotta slp right now
gud nite av1
:)

KL-ing

wee^^ i was in KL since yest
and tis is the 1st time i take ktm all alone to reach KL
didnt noe when to get down d train
yest was like a noobie kept asking the girl who sat beside me..
HAHA
when got down d train..
i lost all my direction..
turned bac n front..
which i suppose to go??
duhh..i didnt care much n juz followed ppl to walk up the staircase..
i was breathing so hard as there r too many steppingstone
~.~
i saw my soh lou hubby ♥ was waiting thr for me adi
wat a relieved!!! i didnt make the wrong decision to folo ppl..HAHA
when hubby saw me n said for his 1st sentence
:" why do u look more n more skinny"
i didnt hav energy to talk to him as i was panting for breath..
after tat,we went to hav our "dinner" at Asia Cafe
n met wif Kelvin n his gf,sis , fren
too shy to face them..juz kept quiet n busy eating 4 my meals

hubby's place is a bit dirty..
guys r liketat,they seldom keep their things clean or tidy
things all over the floor
well,now im alone at home
juz nw had lunch wif hubby
guess wat!!!
he purposely walked bac frm his office n brought me for lunch
im so touched T.T
i treated him for MCD..hee^^
luv to see his hungry +greedy eating face..
so cute..
tonite wil b going to watch Salt 2geta wif his frens
:)

special thanks to Stanley to fetch me to train station
and lead me to the seat
haha...the train was moving slowly n he quickly jumped off
so funny..

well,hope time never goes on so fast
i wil very much appreciate d time im wif him..
stay happy..woo hooo
♥

Starve myself!!!

i nvr take my dinner at outside for yest n 2day
cuz i wish to save money to spend in KL..
very stupid rite??
i onli can drink milo + KoKoKrunch as my dinner
n yet it stil doesnt make me full enuf..
no choice..perhaps its time to keep fit :)
hubby begs me to eat..
but i lie him tat my house has lots of foods to eat..
hee^^

FINALLY...FINALLY
avthing is over..
no more mid term
no more presentation
woo hoo..
we're flee away frm stress
how gud is it ♥

tomoro wil b leaving kampar n heading to kl for 4 days
this is the 1st time i take ktm to KL to meet my hubby
reali cant wait to meet u
n this is the 1st time i nvr bac ipoh for 2 weeks..
gonna miss my parents much T.T
i couldnt imagine how many things i wil buy in kl??
how much i spend in kl??
hee^^

yest's nite was in angry mood cuz one of my housemates invited many of his frens to my house
they made noise for almost 3 hours..
n made me couldnt focus on my things..
how i wish i can go down n ask them shut up..
grrrrr >.<

ntg to write abt..
stop here..
:)

Tired

every monday for sure i wil feel super tired when i was attending classes
cuz i departed frm my house around 7.45am
imagine how early it was n i had to drive bac to kampar
duhhh :((
took my nap for almost 2 2/1 hours
many characters appeared in my dream
hubby ♥ appeared at the last scene n i stil could rmb wats his actions n words spoken by him..
aiks...bad boy!!! maks ♥

i realise tat my dark circles n eyebags r growing bigger n bigger..
hubby grumbles tat it looks more darker than b4
and urges me to sleep a little bit early..
feel warmth when he keeps sighing..HAHA
feel sweet deep inside my heart ♥

yaks...finals is cuming nearer n nearer
but y i couldnt hav the mood to prepare for it??
current mood=holidays mood
juz wish to throw avthing away n enjoy my moments wif hubby til max
wif no worries..
wif no obstructions
HAHA
but he's sick now..
hopefully he can recover asap
n hid beloved baby=CAR

well,stop right here
hoping to focus on my notes..
B....U...T...
ngek
:)

gud nite av1

Sunday Sunday Sunday (",)

as i mentioned b4,sunday is my family day
so as usual,v had our lunch at "mun zhong" 2geta wif my relatives
guess wat!! today's meals was pretty exp
RM247.. wow..thanks DAD..u're the great one ♥
after tat we went shopping mall to grab stuffs..
spent another RM300 ++
can imagine how much things we bought???
elder sis is going bac to kl..
aiks..gudbye...will see u very soon :) take care

well..here i wan to emphasize tat independent is very much important to us..
as we're stepping in2 adult stage..
decisons shud b made by yrself,but nt relying on yr families or frens to help u
yes,perhaps v can seek sum advices frm them
getting info which path shud b right to walk on..
anyhow,the final decision u hav to make it yrself..
if mistakes happen,take it as a lesson n don't repeat it in future..
for me,im super relying my family or frens or even my hubby to do avthing for me
in another word of saying,im LAZY to think wats right or wrong..
didnt bear the consequence..didnt think much bout future
im just LAZY for avthing..
BUT~~~~~~~~~
as days are passing by..
im changing..yes..i shud change..
cuz im adult now..
n i shud hav made my own decision rather than relying on others
guess wat,ppl wil feel tat u're useless or starts criticizing u if keep acting like tis..
yes..perhaps it sounds hard to do avthing on yr own..
y not u hav a try n belif tat u can do it??
or mayb without any help frm yr families or frens,u could do it better?
who knows rite??
seriously,im quite relying my hubby as well..
he grumbles me alot bout tis matter
yes,its too late for me to noe tat i shud hav b independent..
sorry hubby..
someday later u wil open yr eyes wide n realise tat im chaning!!!
haha...juz wait n see ya

besides,i do nt like ppl to rely me as well..
the feeling is juz like..hmm...nt feeling gud..
the more u rely,the more i feel disgusting n irritating.
n i wil juz walk away frm yr life n may nt mix u anymore..
yup...tats me..
yes,if frens rely on u sumtimes..
yes..u can help if u hav the ability..
but if sum1 is too relying heavily on me..
sorry..i wil stay away frm u..
mayb u feel tat im nt a gud fren..
yes..u can think tis..
but i do tis juz to let u noe tat u shouldnt be like tis
frens wil leave u someday n they may not help u avtime whenever u're in problems..
so,try to solve problems yrself..
n tel yrself
"YES,I CAN DO IT"

i hope i can change as well..
time is needed to prove

wooohooo~~~
is in happy mood these few days
cuz im gonna meet my beloved hubby soon..
wonder whr he wil bring me to hang around..
*claps*

well,stop rite here..
stay happy av1

Feel Good

well..today just got the chance to hang out wif my beloved sis ♥
i hav not met her for almost one month..
wee^^
she treated me to eat my favourite cake --> chocolate banana
both of us ordered three slice of cakes..
imagine that..!!
wow..we're reali a big eater
but at the end we couldnt finish it..
TOO FULL :)
managed to buy a new shoes in Vincci again
total up,i hav got 8 shoes in kampar..
if my parents noe tis..im sure i wil get killed
told my hubby bout tis..
get SCOLDED
T.T

week 11 is cuming..
final is around the edge..
started to feel terrible as im not well prepared for it
but i dun wish to study for last min cuz its sure that i wil end up like im rushing to finish it ):

a day which is given by GOD
and we're given a chance to enjoy the day to the fullest
let go the sadness
strive for happiness
wsh av1 can stay happily each day

ntg much to say..
enjoy yr weekedn av1
:)

Its friday :)

Yup..its Friday..a lovely Friday..
but wat can i do for tis whole day??
mayb study 4 my finals??
awww..moods haven cum n found me yet..
hmm..well...i duno wat i can do seriously..
but for sure..2day is brand new day with no worries :)
av1 shud enjoy avday given by the GOD
treasure n cherish avthing u hav got

2day sister is cuming bac..woohoo
since when i never meet her??
3 weeks i guess..
sure my days wil full of laughters n joys..

av1 does nid improvements..
but it depends watever u wish to improve
though sounds quite hard,but if u work hard..
im sure u're gonna step into success path
yup..i wish i can b independent person which do nt rely on ppl so much
sumtimes things i nid to settle myself without any help frm others
i nid to train myself..
alright..juz see when can i success
erm..another thg is..
perhaps is my behavior..???
sumtimes im emotional n sumtimes i can b cheerful all the day.
as i noe its nt gud cuz ppl around u wouldnt like to guess y r u in down mood..
so,put a smiling face avday..
n ppl feels comfortable to mix wif u
aww..wil u guys think tat im "ki siao" if i laugh avday..??
HAHAHA...
anyway,im nt hard to mix wif..
i can chat whatever things wif u if u start a topic wif me..
cuz im talkative..
hee^^

im so much hoping next week wil cum 2 me faster..
ngek ngek~~
mega sales is started..
hope he wil control me frm buying unnecessary things again..

*special thanks to Charlotte n ah meng who walk into my life n lead me to a brighter life,without u both,i wil definitely nt a happy person.thanks alot.i wil appreciate u guys..heart ya ♥*

life is tough

finally settled down all those assignments n mid terms
onli left for presentation
den wil work very hard for the cuming final
:(
tough life is cuming nearer n nearer.
n i juz wana say tat time flies superb fast
seems like i stil couldnt catch up anything
CPY..plz dun b lazy in yr studies..
be serious,be hardworking n strive for the best..
yes..im sure i can do it..

just sent my fren n her hubby to bus station.
they r heading bac to Melaka..
i bet she wil spend 1k ++ to buy her own stuffs,rite??
HAHA..sorry

juz realise tat tis sem has got many unhappy things happen around me
critisism n arguments happen frequently..
gap is getting wider n wider..
sooner o later frm 5 members wil b turning into 3
if u realise tat frens around u are leaving one by one..
i guess u hav to bear in mind tat..
whether is it yr problem or...????
or is it yr attidude has sum problems n made frens keep leaving u??
plz dont blame others since they r not wrong to leave u

for me..now i wil very much appreciate frens around me..
yes,sumtimes im emotional
but i can sure tat..i wont easily get angry towards my frens unless u hav done sumthing tats over my expectation n rude to me...
i wil juz stay away frm u..
tats the way to negelct ppl..

ppl..do appreaciate wat u hav now.:)